today one week in Kabul

Dear friends.

Yes it’s already a week in Kabul.

When I woke up today, after a restless night, hiding in the heat under a sheet, to protect myself from lots of mosquitoes, it’s already very busy outside. The bazar is lively busy. A begger women is repeating continually in a suffering voice her interests. Cars are honking. And from the bazar you hear the bustle. Some stands have a repeating mashine with a loudspeaker. The bazar is so busy since 3 days. Even in the very early morning. When you join the happening you get pushed all the time. Everyone is in a hurry. Its a little bit like christmas preparation time in Europe. I learn that the Ramadan fast is finished already tonight, one day earlier then announced. As I understand it’s by message from Mekka, important is, that the moon crecent is to see, before the fast can be finished.

2 days ago I found on my couchsurfing side two messages. They where sent even 2 days earlier. But I could not see them before. ????…… Anyway. One was from Wahid. The other one from a woman named Dill. Dill is around mid 35 I guess, a friendly person, on the profile she did not carry any scarf or hijab. I am really curious, who she is, how it is for her ( and other women) in Afghanistan and so on. There were only two women on the whole Kabul couchsurfing side who offered hosting. So rare. After contacting first I had to contact again in the afternoon. Then we had a really connection and she understood the peace walk project. There was so much good heart energy flowing, so surprising. She said she has to check her guesthouse, I asked back, yes it’s for free, if there is a place for me. Later she said, she will let me know. Then, that she has to ask a friend or family member, because she is a women, and they would pick me up the next day. I am trilled. This will be a very good connection I feel.

Next day nothing happend in the morning, nothing at midday. None in the afternoon…… At around 5pm I got overwhelmed by negativ emotions, doubts and scepticism is rising up. I feel a wave of uncontrolled emotions running over me. I have this idea, that this is the best tarning for a kidnapping. You put a nice women on couchsurfing as a lure and then you pick up the victim. I can’t stop this feeling. It’s big. No further connection in the evening. In the morning the feeling has disappeared. She messages, that the guest house is busy. Some relatives are in the house, she does not know how long they will stay. But she wants to find a friend to host me. I agree.

These days I stay a lot with Mooji’s videos, his satsangs on YouTube. (Also www.mooji.org) They give me a lot of deep insides. And especially on the experience level. It’s sooo wonderful. I am looking forward to hopefully see him in India next spring, to join satsang there. He has not sceduled for next year yet. If you are interested who you really are, if you want to discover, what you already are, what potential you have inside and if you are not afraid to lose your identification as a person…… this is the way to the truth.

With Love

Thomas